storing sunny and cloudy memories

spent 3 days in the city. i didn't like it. the surroundings, people, infrastructure, roads, safety, everything! except for this capital cafe i went. cute, small, but nice. rojak sedap! yesterday it finally hit me that he finally found rachel. it will never be the same. i guess, we are not meant to be. :)

one tree hill is one of our thing. i tried for 20 minutes and i just couldn't do it. don't think i'm ready. scared or miss? i don't know. hahahahahah so poyo right? get over it kuna! whatever.

have you even been in an accident? i have not. Alhamdulillah! the only traumatic accident experience i had was few years back. i was driving and a stone hit the left side window and smashed my window into pieces. ever since, i was scared if i see the guy with high-tech machine mowing lawn by the roadside. that was probably the only traumatic experience i've ever encountered. yesterday i was talking to my friend over a set-up lunch date between me and this handsome guy. the lunch went well, the guy is good looking and has a british accent. over lunch, i was asking my friend why is she not moving on with her life and let go of her past relationship? and her answer was 'scared' a.k.a post accident trauma. she is scared that everything will be the same and she couldn't bear the pain. so she's holding back from this guy who treats her like princess. sacrifices his time, ego and pride just for her. but she keeps testing him to prove that every guy is the same. she doesn...

this week work was fun! not only we played game of life, we walked around the mall, took extra lunch time, clocked-in late, clocked-out early, and we watched movie. i'm enjoying this freedom. temporary freedom i should say. sadly, today is the last day i get to do all this. next week will be the same old boring working day. pfftt!

i wish i have a time machine that could deport me years ago where i am more happy as a person. life was much more easier back then. i'm not saying that i'm not happy now. but i was much happier back then. life was pretty much stress-free. except when i'm broke. i wasn't working in this giant building. i could skip classes without effecting my pocket. we were all friends and loved each other. everything was in place, but i guess i took it for granted. now, i wake up from bed when it's still dark. face the damn traffic early morning to get to this giant building. couldn't skip work eventhough the rain makes it better to just sleep in. every single move at work is being watched by the damn cctv. friends are divided because some took sides, while some is just indenial that we are no longer good friends like we used to. having said that, i'm still glad that i have my girls with me through thick and thin. if it was not for them, i would have not come back up from ...

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri! hoooorayy! this raya turned out to be the best raya ever. i'm seeing things more than i used to. enjoyed every single Ramadhan day. Ramadhan was short and i didn't have much time. but Syawal is here and i'm happy. a month to ask for forgiveness and start fresh. forgive me of all my wrong doings and shortcomings. May Allah the Most Merciful forgive us all of our wrong doings and shortcomings. i am really blessed if i still be around for Ramadhan next year. "forgiveness liberates the soul, it removes fear. that is why it is such a powerful weapon." Nelson Mandela

i have to start by saying bravo to all mothers out there! being a mother is not an easy job. it's mentally challenging and physically exhausting. for those of you who signed up to become a mother, congratulations! the company i worked for, held this program called program sentuhan kasih. each employee gets to adopt a child from selected orphanage homes. couple weeks back, me and my friends were excited to choose one. when i saw this girl, i knew that i should get her right away. so i put down my name, email address and extension number. took her photo and went back to work. weeks past, and the day finally arrived. the day i get to spend time with my adopted daughter. from the picture they gave, she didn't look that small but when i see her standing in front of me, gosh! she's so tiny! she was introduced to me by a committee member of the program. she wasn't shy at all, she was friendly. she took my hand and walked with me as if she already knew me. i was the one who was...