storing sunny and cloudy memories

in about 4 hours, i bid farewell to 2013. it has been quite a crazy love journey which i cant sum up in words. a lot has happened and i mean it, A LOT! traveled to Brazil, South Africa, Australia, New Zealand and not forgetting Perhentian Island. it was amazing! i will travel more next year, hopefully. had the best and most amazing year in terms of my career, and i must emphasise that i have never felt this way about my work or my career before. this year, i have really proven myself that anything is possible if you put your mind to it. when it comes to career, i would say that i am hard on myself. i would always push myself to be better and sometimes or most of the time, i would put ridiculous target and strive for it. yes, i am kiasu like that. i would love to think that i am a hardworking person and i work really hard to be where i am now. i don't do it for position, power or money. those things will come together when it's your time but with me, it's the target ...

732 days ago, 16th September 2011 was my last post. so, many things had happened which at times i regret i didn't write it down. no point having regrets in life now huh? need to move on.. few things happened: 1. got engaged 1st January 2012 2. beloved mom got diagnosed with pancreatic cancer 20th May 2012 3. traveled to Germany July 2012 (best trip in my career life!) 4. attended my friend's wedding in Bangladesh somewhere November 2012 5. got married 20th December 2012 6. one and only mother i had for 28 years passed away 6th May 2013 if you're wondering how i am with all the turbulence in my life, the answer is i am ok. moving on with life even though at times i don't think i can. growing up even since i was small, i always tell myself that i am going to die first before my parents. almost everyday i will tell myself that, mainly because i don't know how to live without my mom. but i guess God has other better plan for me. so, yeah i survived. o...

selamat hari Malaysia! i have decided to blog again. weeehhheee! not because i have items to promote or i am an insurance agent now that i want  to get more clients. reason being is because two years have passed since i last blog and so many things had happened that im starting to not remember those significant moments in my life. so many things had happened and i wish i had kept it on video or write it somewhere so i can look back ten years down the road and laugh or cry at it. anyhow, welcome back to me! ;)

Have you ever felt like you don’t belong in your own country? I have… Born and raised in Malaysia, my own home country has turned out to be a foreign country where nothing seems to be the way it used to be, at least to me. I used to feel like shouting ‘I’m home’ whenever I step my feet at the airport after a long vacation outside Malaysia. Nowadays, it felt like I’m coming back to a place where I don’t belong. I enrolled my degree in a local university that welcome students from abroad to enjoy education from this country. Instead, these foreign students come to this country and make it like their own, speeding around campus in their luxury cars, hosting late night parties at the apartment block where I stayed and skipping classes like their parents own the university. Although the university clearly states that a student can only sit for the final exam provided they attend 80% of the classes, foreign students get away with their attendance but local students are not allowed to sit for...

wondermilk's cuppacakes show 2011. it was fun although it was tiring. thank you very much wondermilk for having us. hope to be part of it next year :)

sometimes i wonder how do i get here? how the hell did i end up being this person. dont get me wrong because i love myself, my family and friends who i cant live without. my love hate relationship with my work will never end. even if i quit my job, i dont think ill be satisfied. but as long as i need to pay my mortgage, car, food, vacation and shopping, quiting my job seems impossible. im grateful and thankful for what i have. my life up til today has been a crazy giant drop ride. i wouldnt say i enjoy every bit of it, there are days i feel like killing myself. somehow i manage to get through it. they say.. "God never gives you something that you can't handle, and never takes back anything without which you can't live"

europtrip was amazing! started off in London for 2 days. did some shopping in London. Portobello Market, Oxford St and Covent Garden. left early from London to Brugge. it was amazing x10000! cool, nice and chill. places where retirees go to spend their multimillionaire pension fund. took the bicycle tour and we just cycled around town. superduper fun! spent 1 night in Brugge, then headed off to Paris. wasn't what i expected. a little bit disappointing i must say. smelly city, dirty and people there are not friendly. they won't speak to you unless you speak french. pfftt! the only thing that excites me is the good looking french guys ;) next stop after Paris was Barcelona. i don't have a word to describe Barcelona. beyond amazing! (ok, over la pulak) shopping was great, people are friendly and helpful. food was good, tour places are nearby each other. metro was easy to navigate, most of them speak english. everything i hoped for! 4 days in Barcelona was not enough. then ...

like most first-time home buyers, i've been poisoned by my family members to buy a home. when only i thought buying a home is as simple as buying a camera, i was damn wrong. it is NOT a simple process. it keeps me awake at night, makes me go cuckoo at the office and everytime i drive to and back from work, all i can think of is the things i have to do to buy a home. i still have reservations as to why i need to buy a home. do i really have to buy a home? should i? is investment or some sort of savings a reason why people buy a property? yes, i do agree at some point that the property you buy (invest) will appreciate, at an average of 6%. yadayadayada..the value of the property after you've invested sum of money after 30 years will be millions. but the question is now, how do you buy a property? 1. scout for the area of choice 2. visit the show unit (if any) 3. pay deposit 4. apply loan 5. loan approved, pay downpayment, sign S&P 6. project commences, start paying interest 7...

somewhere last week we went and watch Lat Kampung Boy The Musical, a musical about the life of Lat, famous Malaysian cartoonist. it was well written by Harith Iskandar and directed by Hans Isaac. can't stop humming to Mrs. Hew's song "do what you love and love what you do". the only way one can enjoy their work is by doing what they love. that way, they won't feel like their working. personally, the musical was educational in many aspect. i was educated on some of the things about Malaysia that i didn't know before. made me realised how grateful i am of what i have and how successful i am at the moment. the musical also made me realised that career and family is not a positive slope. to be successful in career, family's happiness has to be sacrificed. time in which you can't buy or redeem after the successful career has a cost in terms of alternative opportunities forgone. to strike a balance between career and family would be a challenging task which ...

work is getting crazier by the minute, and all i can think of is how i want to grow old. i want to grow old in a beach house somewhere remote, on a small island where i can dive whenever i want to. my friends would be turtle, fishes and occasionally barracudas. ill eat fish, prawns and squids for lunch and dinner, pancakes or waffle for breakfast. every evening ill sit by the beach as i watch the sunset. at night after dinner ill read books and sleep before 10pm. can i have that kind of life please?