storing sunny and cloudy memories

it's 7:09am and i'm supposed to go to work... but as i was in the shower i remembered something that i need to let it out. hahahhaha. i'm so going to be late. whatever. i realised something so painful yet so real in life, you don't always get what you want. and..the things you want so bad don't come easy. you have to work hard for it. but..what if the things that you want are the things that you can't have. yesterday was a sad day. very sad.

danish (left), danial (right) unlike my usual friday, last friday i went for afiq's going away makan makan at his house. afiq has been my bestfriend for the past 10 years. (wowwww, calculating how long i've been friends with him gave me a shock) oh ya, so i went to his house with my two girls, khafidha and sheffer. we were first to arrive and when we arrived, afiq's nephew the twins danial and danish came running to us shouting 'siapa tu?' i answered, 'aunty kuna', then they quickly ran to their tok mama and tok ayah informing them 'aunty kuna sampai'. we walked in, and they were very polite to salam the three of us. salam cium tangan punya jenis..so cute! being danial and danish, they were hyper the whole night. running around the house, chewing my handbag's chain, following us the whole night. they sang songs for us, performed us with national anthem and their school song. we played games too. name the car game and to my surprise, they know the...

it will hurt over time it will hurt less and less and eventually i'll remember and it only hurt a little. "Christina Yang, Grey's Anatomy"

we talked, we laughed, we paused, we cried we held hands the entire time we hugged each other for the longest time thank you for everything i love you more than all the stars.

when things are rough i like to watch this video. he makes me feel better :) "experience is what you get, when you don't get what you want" "when you're doing a bad job and nobody points it out at you, that's when they have given up on you" "they only do it to make you better" "brick walls are there for a reason: they let us prove how badly we want things"

my entry March 23, 2010: there are so many things i need to buy this month. 1. black pencil eyeliner 2. jubilee lipstick 3. face mineral 4. mineralize blusher 5. tea tree shampoo 6. perfume it's june and i still haven't bought my lipstick and minerals. huarghghh! and the perfume! but that's an exception, because i can't decide which one i want. other than that, why can't i stick to my list and get it. i can't seem to prioritize which items i want. everything is a need, instead of want. i neeeeeeeeddddd to get the face mineral asap because my face looks like a kerbau already. my eyes are starting to look like panda's eyes. blame it on the 2-3 hours sleep i get every night. so difficult for me to fall asleep when sleep used to be my middle name. even the sleeping pills are not working. blurgh!

i was reading my old entries, from year 2004 til today.. and i cannot believe who i have become.. can somebody pls explain what happened to me? where did i go?

to my little boy, happy 1st birthday to you! may Allah S.W.T bless you with happiness and many more years to come. love, mama na

"every day holds the possibility of a miracle." - Elizabeth David watched Sex and The City 2 with my sisters from another mother. it was hilarious! we laughed and enjoyed it very much. woohooo! great great movie. i love my girls and i wouldn't want to watch it with anyone else. i'm glad i went for the midnight show although i had trouble waking up this morning. then again, it was worth it.

Seoul, South Korea, 10 May - 15 May 2010.