my head and my heart they're drifting apart

being an adult means that you have to make your own decision and bare with the consequences of the decision. the older i get, the tougher the decisions i have to make. i wish i could just turn back time and be 7 years old forever. i certainly didn't have to make decision at that age. i am fickle, indecisive, difficult and stubborn. i can't make a stupid decision myself. i can't decide if i want a black handbag or a tan handbag, i ended up buying both. i can't decide what to wear in the morning, i ended up taking the one on top. in the train, i can't decide to sit left or right, i ended up standing the whole trip. during my class break, i can't decide if i wanna use the elevator or take the stairs, i ended up taking the stairs and spill coffee all over myself on the way down. then, i can't decide if i wanna cook chicken or lamb, i defrosted chicken, then 3 minutes later, i defrosted lamb and few minutes afterward, i decided to cook chicken. i can go on and on about this, but i'm too lazy to think now. the bottom line is, there is something wrong with the nerves in my brain. i can't make up my mind. it changes every few second. shaitzzaaaa! what's wrong with me?!

i really feel like eating char kuey teow and laksa johor. hahahhahahha.wtf right? hhmmm.. i can only imagine the taste now. my eyes widen everytime someone mention they're originally from johor. if they say they're from johor, i'll start thinking of laksa johor. if they say they're from negeri sembilan, i'll start thinking of daging salai. if they say they're from terengganu, i'll start thinking of nasi dagang. anak mami, nasi kandar! ipoh, pau! asia cafe, char kuey teow and tauhu bakar! wowwwwwww, i think i need to relax and breathe.

i seriously think something is wrong with my brain. i've been having really weird dreams. the day before yesterday, i dreamed that my lecturer had a massive stroke attack and i had to bring him to the hospital. it was before the exam, i must say. there goes the tips for the exam. then, another dream which is rather scary and weird at the same time shall not be mentioned here. too scary to even type it out. knock knock brain, what's wrong?