storing sunny and cloudy memories

10 years ago, I dreamt of becoming an architect, working with an architect firm or Mr. Kasturi , earning 4 digit salary. at that time, all I had in mind is I want to finish school and work. but my mom keep telling me to enjoy school, go tuition, prepare for exam and not to worry about making money or grow older. i should have listened to her. now that i am older, i have come to realise that there is nothing great in aging. You get more wrinkles, under eye circle and grey hair. even if you make 4 digit salary, nothing can reverse your wrinkles and under eye circle. the older you get, the more responsibility you have to shoulder, the more decisions you have to make. in making those decisions, there are a lot of things that needs to be considered. things used to be easy when you were young, you either wants Magnum Ice Cream or Paddle Pop? either one that you choose, you'll have to eat it cos you chose it. there is no external pressure which will drive you to choose either one. you'

Postmortem: Wasn't as nervous as I thought I would be. Luck was on my side, got parking in front of the cafe. Arrived early, went to buy chewing gum in case my breath stinks. Bahhaha! Chose a very strategic table, corner. At first sat with my back facing the door then changed facing the door cos he might not recognise how my back looked like as I only met him once. Waited and ordered latte, read magazine. 5 mins past 930pm, saw him walking towards the cafe. I wasn't nervous. He walked in and smiled, I smiled back and he sat. He ordered, we talked. Talked til half past midnight. Continued talking in front of the cafe. Said goodbye. He walked to the right, I went to the left. Got into my car, went back. That was it. Ordinary coffee session with a random guy I decided to ask out. He was physically attractive I would say, but personality wise he was alright. It went well, better than I thought it would be. He talked most of the time, which was a big relieved for me. I didn't be

january happened so quick! february, dzurina & khairil became husband & wife. march is coming, i cannot wait :) what happened in the past, forget it. what happened in the future, can't tell. what happened during the present, is what i need to concentrate. i suck at spelling concentrate. i usually spell it concerntrate, wtf! anyhoo, yes i need to concentrate on today, now. two hours to go. just be myself, relax and chill. if it happens, it happens. if not, deal with it. aite? hhahahahhha!