storing sunny and cloudy memories

i'm thinking of what to wear for tonight. green? red? blue? top? tshirt? shorts? jeans? leggings? i can't wait to start my new year with new azam and new cita cita and new angan angan. maybe i should have a list of what to accomplish for next year. all good things must come to an end. this year has been good to me. happy sad most of the time. laugh and cry at the same time. overall, it was good. goodbye to two zero zero eight. hello to two zero zero nine.

drove here this morning. i enjoyed driving to pulau pinang, singapura and merata rata. except to kuala lumpur. stupid jam! no difference to pulau pinang, massive traffic jam after the tol towards the bridge. bad traffic in the city, gurney drive and everywhere here. its been a while since i last came here. i miss this place. its a happy sad feeling. pulau pinang is a place my family likes to visit. this is where my dad would choose his annual holiday. we ate nasi kandar, ice kacang, kuey teow, sotong kangkung, rojak buah, laksa penang. we bought 30 dvds, t shirts and fake stuffs. they are planning to go to the beach tomorrow but im not in the mood for beach. ill just sleep. favourite! im waiting for my gang to finish eating then we are ready to go. i need my daily cigarettes dosage and they are so lembab! updated version of my list.. nirwana, nasi daun pisang dlish, coffee + pretzel mamateh's, nasi kerabu anjung merah, lontong sri melur, roti canai + teh tarik delicious, pasta + pa

merry christmas! traveled to nilai and ate my favorite food, paling favorite! daging salai masak lomak kuning and laksa johor. i was confused which one to eat first. hahaha! yawzaaa.. next pit stop, penang. more good food! updated version of my list. nirwana, nasi daun pisang dlish, coffee + pretzel mamateh's, nasi kerabu anjung merah, lontong sri melur, roti canai + teh tarik delicious, pasta + pavlova mcdonalds, prosperity burger ss15, rojak mamak jalan yap kwan seng, puti bongsu asia cafe, kuey teow goreng + tauhu bakar the curve, ayam penyet haji don, laksa johor + mee rebus carlos, nasi lemak ayam goreng melaka, ikan bakar negeri sembilan, daging salai masak lomak kuning la bodega, tapas chillis, barbeque beef ribs/lamb chop tony romas, barbeque beef ribs anjung merah, nasi dagang/nasi + ayam goreng kampung alexis, pasta/beef sandwich village park, roti bakar + pulut kuning penang, laksa penang + kuey teow + abc 10 more days..

places to go, food to eat.. nirwana, nasi daun pisang dlish, coffee + pretzel mamateh's, nasi kerabu anjung merah, lontong sri melur, roti canai + teh tarik delicious, pasta + pavlova mcdonalds, prosperity burger ss15, rojak mamak jalan yap kwan seng, puti bongsu asia cafe, kuey teow goreng + tauhu bakar the curve, ayam penyet haji don, laksa johor + mee rebus carlos, nasi lemak ayam goreng melaka, ikan bakar negeri sembilan, daging salai la bodega, tapas chillis, barbeque beef ribs/lamb chop tony romas, barbeque beef ribs anjung merah, nasi dagang/nasi + ayam goreng kampung alexis, pasta/beef sandwich village park, roti bakar + pulut kuning wowww..im superhungry now! time is running out, i have exactly 12 days.

they both did a good job. but i must say.. in terms of playing the survivor game, it was definitely amanda. she played to win a million dollar. well, parv just basically stood there and sneaked her way through to the final two. to my surprise and i am utterly disgusted by the results.. parv won the survivor micronesia. bledi hell, taik ayam kentut masin! huargh. it's not fair. amanda worked hard for it. shit ass! okay, im getting too emotional about it. i should put it to an end. during tribal council, ozzy said the sweetest thing to amanda. he was literally in tears when he expresses his feelings and said that he loves amanda. aaaawwwww! so sweet. dalam hutan pon sempat bercinta. hahahahahahahha! survivor is the best!

during my class, he (my lecturer) gave the whole class formula to calculate the age of a younger girl, if you're planning to go for a younger girl. apparently all the guys in my class happen to know that formula. a few had never heard of it before, i was one of them. formula, only for guys or boys (he said). if you're planning to go out with a younger girl. this is the formula by my lecturer. your age divide by two plus seven. that's the girls age that you're supposed to go out with. number below that formula, wrong! wrong! wrong! if i were a boy, using that formula. 24/2 = 12 + 7 = 19 19 years old. if i were a boy lah.. maybe it's a unisex formula. hahaha! if it's not a unisex formula, i should be going out with 34 years old guy. wowww! that's old! wowwwww! nadeera, could james be 34? after the formula, we ended up talking about stuffs.. like tom cruise, nicole kidman, hugh jackman. that friday class, weird much.

my stress level are now extremely high it can explode anytime reports and research on rubbish topics are tiring my sisters and brothers are demanding they are driving me nuts! all i can do now is bitch and complain about it. hahahaha! life's a bitch, deal with it. on the other hand, my dreams are really getting weird each day. is it some kind of hint? or track? or maybe its a dot that i should connect. connect the dots, kuna. i'm happy with what i have now, what i feel now and what i do now. after two long miserable years, i felt peace, relieved and empty. yeah, that's the word. i felt empty. i'm really really happy with myself, most importantly, emotionally. i believe that if you ask for help, you will get it. i'm glad i asked for help and guide. god is always there to help. you just have to believe in god and ask for help. my prayers have been answered, thank you god. this year has been an adventurous journey. this year is coming to an end, sadly. i still remember

i have so many scars, i dont need another. on my leg, on my hand, on my face! what do i do to get rid of it? blargh! i hate it. it's so ugly. tried putting lotion, bio oil, scar cream. maybe i should try minyak masak. ha ha ha. not funny, kuna. i don't remember how i got them, it's just there. maybe scars are there to make you remember the memories of those scars. oh ya, the one on my leg is because of a mosquito bite. first it was a mosquito bite, then after months of scratching it it turned into an infection, then after it popped, scar. what a process. pfft! on my hands, ermm.. just cuts. from knife and paper cuts. now, a new wound on my hand. after the process, it will join the scar team. when is this wound going to heal and join the scar team? maybe scars are there to remind us of our life events. i should keep track of my scars from now on. okay, survivor dah start. bye :)

few of the incidents i encountered which were quite weird and creepy. 1. joline, homeless from the tram incident 2. joline's friend, homeless from the tram 3. mr. garbo man, sang happy birthday for me 4. the guy crying on the tram stop. 5. yesterday, a guy screaming and shouting on the phone, across the street. 6. today, a lady crying at the train station with a big luggage. 7. now, a couple fighting down the street, screaming and shouting at each other. see if i can add more.

omg omg omg omg! jason went to exile island and got the immunity idol. of course james didn't win immunity challenge, erik did. so they all planned on voting james out. the girls, told jason that they were all voting james out. what jason didn't know, they have another plan. to vote jason out. because they knew that jason going to believe them. he was so bloody comfortable with his immunity idol and believed the girls. so what if the girls said they're going to vote james out? bloody use your immunity idol. tribal council time, they were all saying they were going to vote james out. so jason was all smiling, saying that he has made a good move to go to exile island. yada yada yada. voting time, they all voted. and nothing suprise to me, jason didn't use his bloody precious immunity idol. votes were out, james 3 jason 4. jason, the tribe has spoken. sorry to say, you were blind sided. ozzy were blind sided and jason didn't learn the lesson. so, jason got blind sided

so, this is what happened. ozzy got the immunity idol from exile island weeks ago. he kept the idol to himself because he was so strong with his alliance. then, immunity challenge. jason did the dumbest mistake ever in survivor history he made a pact with the others to guarantee him from being voted out so the others agree, just not to let him win the immunity. jason is now at risk. because he was dumb to trust the rest. but what he didn't know was the rest are still going to vote him out. ozzy's plan. then suddenly, they came up with a brilliant plan. to get rid of ozzy. because he is so strong and he basically control the team he won't see this coming. okay, tribal council. they all told jason that he did the dumbest mistake in survivor history. and they all are still going to vote him out. then when the host counted the votes. ozzy 5, jason 4. ozzy, your tribe has spoken. ozzy got a shock of his life. he didn't see it coming, so he didn't use his immunity. sorry