storing sunny and cloudy memories

happy new year!  

why must girls lie when they wanna end the relationship? why can't you just say that you don't love him anymore or something, rather than giving a stupid lame lie that everyone knows the whole truth behind it. i guess this is because girls think too much of their reputation, or maybe tak sampai hati. i know breaking up is awful but the guy will have to take it anyway. if you lie and give hope it will only make things worst. hope is the last thing any guy wants from a girl. so girls out there, just tell the truth. he might be sad for a few days but life goes on. i think this holiday thing is really making me unhealthy. today i woke up at 3pm. basically sat in front of the tv, changed channels every 2 minutes, then watched introduction to dorothy dandrige, it was a good movie! then buka puasa, watched coming to america for the 100th time. about 9-ish, went out for teh tarik. came back at 11pm and sat in front of the tv till 1. huargh! and now here i am. what am i doing?!?!?! this

this picture was taken last month. i like it! 

should i work this holiday or should i just chill and lepak, bangun at 2 pm? i don't know. got this job offer to work at utm@jb. i know i can lepak with khafidha, but the journey to jb in a bus is simply not my thing. blargh!

Libra is the only inanimate sign of the zodiac, all the others representing either humans or animals. Many modern astrologers regard it as the most desirable of zodiacal types because it represents the zenith of the year, the high point of the seasons, when the harvest of all the hard work of the spring is reaped. There is a mellowness and sense of relaxation in the air as mankind enjoys the last of the summer sun and the fruits of his toil. Librans too are among the most civilized of the twelve zodiacal characters and are often good looking. They have elegance, charm and good taste, are naturally kind, very gentle, and lovers of beauty, harmony (both in music and social living) and the pleasures that these bring. They have good critical faculty and are able to stand back and look impartially at matters which call for an impartial judgment to be made on them. But they do not tolerate argument from anyone who challenges their opinions, for once they have reached a conclusion, its truth

yesterday was great! thanks nadeera and liyana for calling me. love you guys!! birthday was great and fun, apart from the fight that drowned me in tears for 4 hours. bluargh! don't feel like talking about the fight. anyway, my birthday was great! he gave me the 1st present sharp at 12am, 6th october. i was excited and happy. the thing is i have no idea that he has another present with him. so when we went out for buka puasa, he gave me the 2nd present. it was way better than the 1st present. its something that ive always wanted. i was so happy that even during the dinner i was starring at the present, not listening to a word he's saying. he's so sweet and nice and nice and nice! then later after dinner, we went for coffee at coffee bean. sheffer, boyot, naq, emi, poyo, yana kuman and yana poyo was there too. thank you guys.. im on holiday for one month. i have no idea what to do, plus its fasting month. i woke up today at 5pm. thats bad ppl, bad! tomorrow going for a hair c

sometimes i do feel that i take things for granted. i should be happy with what i have but still im being selfish and not think of others. there are a lot of people outside there who is less fortunate than me and they would be happy enough if they were in my shoes. i have everything that i want. i get almosttttt everything that i want. but still i wish for more. what cant i just be happy and thankful for what i have? me and khafidha went out for coffee last night. it was raining and we have no idea where to go and we decided to have our coffee at coffee bean. khafidha kempunan kopi mahal la konon.. something weird happened yesterday evening. weird...weird

i have a lot of work. due dates for assignments, mid term, quizzes, mid-term. this is making me depressed. i just came back from class and the lecturer told me the bad news that i pray will not happen this semester. "what happened to you girls? you girls are going to be barred". i just stood there with my mouth open, shocked of what might happen. maybe i should start thinking of reasons that i will have to tell the dean in a week or two. with all the stress work and due dates, i dont think i will get good results this semester. im worried! holiday starts early october.. wake me up when september ends.

from mr.nonotz again..boring la jugak! 1. Call me ____: kuna 2. What color of shirt are you wearing right now? beige 3. What Are You Watching Right Now? laptop screen 4. What Was The Last Thing You Ate? nasi daging merah 5. Do You Believe In Karma? what goes around comes around 6. If You Were A Crayon, what color would you be? Why? white..because i like white 7. How Is The Weather Right Now? siang tadi panas..now sejuk la 8. Last Person You Talked To On The Phone? afzal 9. Do You Like The Person Who Sent this? hahahhahaha..like like 10. How Are You Today? good. not enough sleep 11. Favorite Drink(s)? >>>BESIDES WATER nescafe ice 12. Favorite Alcoholic Drink? dont drink 13. Favorite Sports? swimming and diving 14.Favorite Hair Color? blue black, black brownish, rambut sophia la senang! 15. Favorite Eye Color? light brown 16. Favorite Band? tak tau la. nsync kot.. 17. Favorite of x bf/gf? hahahaha. what? 18. Favorite Months? october 19. Favorite Food? semua pon favourite 20. Las

got it from nonots.. Who is the last one.. [1] You touched? - afzal [2] You talked to? - anisa [3] You hugged?-afzal [4] You instant messaged? yana [5] You yelled at? afzal [6] You laughed with? anisa Name four drinks you regularly drink: [1] milo [2] nescafe [3] vanilla coke [4] teh tarik Have you ever... [1] Fallen for a friend? yes..hahhaha [2] Made out with JUST a friend? nope [3] Been rejected? = nopee [4] Been in lust? = hmm..maybe [5] Used someone? = ahahah..yes [6] Ever been used? = yes..of course [7] Been cheated on? = yesssssss [8] Done something you regret? = yess...life must go on [9] Can you list a few of them? nooooo Do you..? [1] Color your hair? = yessss [2] Have tattoos? = no [3] Have Piercing(s)? = yeap [4] Floss daily? = floss? noo [6] Think you are cultured? = sometimes [7] Like to drive fast? = yesssss [8] Believe in God or Devil? = god [9] Believe in The Closet Monster? noo Miscellaneous Questions! [1] What should u be doin right now? = sleep [2] What are you list

at this minute now i really miss the girls. i miss the time we hang out at amoi's house, smoke by the window. sleep over at liyana's for weeks. miss sophia's food. hahaha. miss everyone. good friends are hard to find. i guess im having my pms day.. i feel like crying now.

today i woke up and finally i could see the sun shining through my bedroom window. no more bad level of haze. according to the news the level now is at an unhealthy level but wtf, its good enough compared to last monday. sad part is ill have class this monday. mmu was closed by the president on thursday and friday due the haze problem. im planning to sell of some things on ebay but im not sure what. hahhaa. i just think i could make some money out of it. maybe i could sell shirts that i bought 2-3 years ago which i never wear it because its too small for me but at that time i thought i could fit it someday. hahhaa. simpanan utk hari kurus kononnya. but unfortunately, hari kurus tu tak sampai. gemuk jugak sampai sekarang. some of the shirts i still have tags on it. hahaha. what else ah to auction?

im not going for diving anymore this year.. just realized that im broke. i bought 2 skirts, 3 t-shirts, and 2 books. im broke. but im saving some money for end of this year for sipadan. if my dad says ok because for the time being he thinks that sipadan is dangerous and bla bla bla but i still wanna go, and i wanna go to melbourne visit liyana and nadeera. *sigh*  

im on my 1 week break. yyeaaa. anyway, i just got back from redang last week and last friday i went to tioman. and that would be my last dive for 2005. duit pon dah habis! have to save up for melbourne and bali. if lah everyone jadi go to bali then ill just sibuk2. but my plan now is start saving up for melbourne and since the new bank account is not making everyone any good, might just save up on my own. i wanna go have lunch now..

how can you measure happiness? how do you know if the person is happy? how do you know when youre happy? how can you be happy when you want the others to be happy? how do you know that youll happy? are you happy?

superpistol is currently studying in johor. yesterday our saturday was different without her. i went swimming and im proud of myself. malas la jugak at first. later in the evening me and sheffer went out for a drink and superpistol called telling us that her sweet boyfriend bought her a pendant. im not going to mention from where he got that because i know its expensive. sweet lah your boyfriend. then me and sheffer went shopping..amour jer. later that night sheffer went to her friends birthday party and i went out with afzal. thats it! bosan gile.. as for today, i woke up early. went to vet to send suki for vaccination and deworming. how do you check if a cat is obese? anyway, after the vet session, me and sheffer went out for lunch. we had nasi daun pisang. sedap gile! on the phone with superpistol!!

its been a while.. too busy lately with assignments and bla bla bla. its saturday and i have to do my stupid assignments that my other groupmate will not be doing anything. this is simply because they're born stupid or plainly stupid that they don't understand a simple instruction. i mailed this guy and ask him to do a summary on the article that he read but he kept asking stupid questions. what's the fucking problem? just do the fucking summary and mail it to me! huargh!!! next week friday nadeera is leaving already. so fast laa..and that day itself, i have quiz. not sure if i send you ya amoi.. i wanna go swimming tomorrow BUT..im lazy to wake up in the morning. hhahaha.. im going to redang island end of this month. woohooo.. this will be my last diving trip for year 2005. im so excited and sad at the same time. i wanna go sipadan with amoi but then my dad came up with lil lame excuses. im going to save money to go anyway. just see how it goes after raya..hihi im bored!!!

this is the last week of my holiday. back to nerd life again next monday. its been 2 months already and i still want more holiday. anyway, yesterday was working at hilton from 7am til 7pm and today worked at sunway from 7am til 730pm, im so happy that ill be getting my salary next week, i hope! time is money.. but the sad part is i didnt get to spend much time with him (he's starting to complain), and the girls, i only see them after work. there's so many things to do but so little time. now i wish that i could have 30 hours in a day. work for 12 hours, spend time with afzal 3 hours, the girls, 3 hours, suki 1 hour, at home 4 hours, and sleep 7 hours. i wish.. i know i should be able to manage my time with only 24 hours in a day, but now it seems that im obsessed with work and money. im not saying that i dont have money, i dont lah actually, but next year will be visiting liyana, and i next month and august im going diving which i have to use my own money because my dad just p

he's back from egypt. i was so happy when he called, and still happy now that everything is back to normal. phone ringing every hour. hahhaha. im happy! going to watch movie tomorrow with him. im so excited. i have to watch movie this week because next week ill be working monday, tuesday, thursday. busy busy..*sigh* got this from prettypistol.. 1. TWO NAMES YOU GO BY: kuna liyana 2. TWO THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: sleepyhead lazy 4. TWO THINGS THAT SCARE YOU death failure 5. TWO THINGS U NEED EVERYDAY: money phone 6. TWO OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS://group no doubt the wonders 10. TWO OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES: gossip drink coffee 11. TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO REALLY BUY RIGHT NOW: shoes cd 12. TWO CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING: marketing executive and will have to meet clients at song bird diver instructor-konon! 13. TWO PLACES YOU WOULD GO TO ON VACATION: bali hawaii 15. TWO THINGS YOU DID YESTERDAY: went to ikea with the girls went to hartamas with the girls 16. TWO PERSONS THAT

today me and the girls went to ikea. had meatballs for lunch and then i bought a chest drawer and lamp. then, we went to hartamas because of the nescafe ice. it was good! seriously.. im bored and i miss him..

the trip to pulau aur was great. i had fun there despite the toilet's condition and sleeping in small room packed with 10 people. diving was exciting except for the 1st dive where i panicked, but other dives was fun. as usual, i acted like a bimbo and did few silly things like smiled when i saw clownfish underwater and because of that i flooded my mask with salt water, and also i smiled when we were taking pictures underwater which didn't make any difference to the picture because i was using the regulator. i miss that place! holiday is almost over. i have another 2 weeks to enjoy waking up late in the afternoon, going out with the girls, watch tv. i think its about time already. i can't wait.. yesterday me and the girls went to MAC, Clinique and others warehouse sale and it was crazy. C-R-A-Z-Y. i realised that women can be crazy during sale. im never going to this type of crazy warehouse sale again. superluna called and we talked while on the way to mamak. i felt as thoug

finally im not working tomorrow. yea! tiring when you work for 12 hours up and down the ballroom in heels. my fault. but i guess you wont feel it while you were working, but once you stop for a break thats where i started to feel sleepy. most probably will be working straight when he leaves for egypt. need to get as much money as i can to go visit superluna. sikit sikit lama lama jadi bukit. anyway, got this from superluna.. 1.Name Four Bad Habits You Have: * pemalas, isap rokok, tidur lambat, bangun lambat. 2.Name Four Things That You Wish You Had: * appropriate weight, dean's certificate, more time 3.Name Four Scents You Love: * afzal, escada, anna sui secret wish, rain, 4.Name Four People That Know You the Best: * my mum, my dad, the girls, afzal 5.Name Four Things You'd Never Wear: * leather pants, hot pants, boob tube 6.Name Four Things You Are Thinking About Now: * what to wear tomorrow, what to bring to the island, who will voted out tomorrow (american idol), who will w

scuba class today was fun. i enjoyed it and in fact i cant wait for the real thing. i got to do the giant strike entering water, just like what you've seen on tv. other than that, the new foundation powder i just bought serves no purpose. but i still love what i experienced today but not the part where i was walking with my big bagpack and accidently broke the vase at the side of the pool. im still thinking about what just happened 3 hours ago. i wish i could just turn back time and say whatever i want to say. why do we women have to be treated differently from men? it is still bad for your health and damages your lungs what-so-ever. genderism.ah so what..(sheffer's style). sometimes i still don't get it..or ill never will, when i behave well, score for my exams and control my anger. they still treat me as though im 13 yrs old. they see me as their 13 yrs old daughter who misbehaved and acted like a psycho bitch. things will never change in this house. ill always be the one

yesterday me, khaf, sheffer and mawar went for a holiday at holiday villa. near and cheap. we had fun playing scrabble and monopoly from midnight to 9 in the morning. we didnt sleep the whole night. i mean khafidha and mawar. i managed to sleep for few hours. i had a great great great time with the girls, though we had a HUGE argument with the assistant manager regarding our bills and also we were accompanied by few cockroaches! i think it was 4 or 5. i guess that was the last time we're going to sleep there.

results is coming out in 2 days time. i can't wait. im nervous about it. i think this is the 1st time that i feel this way about my results. usually i can predict what my results would look like but this time its difficult. i can't even predict my results for french. *sigh* the contender is another tv show by mark burnett that i think is good. its really good. watching manfredo fought joey is the worst fight ive ever seen. joey was bleeding, he broke his ribs and he had to go for 40-50 stitches. manfredo wins with nothing but few bruises. the thing is, joey is the strongest among those 8 finalist but he was so scared to fight and wasn't prepared mentally. he's still one of my favourites in the contender. next week jesse vs bonsante. i know jesse will win. so top four; alfonso gomez, sergio mora, peter manfredo jr. and jesse brickley. i hope alfonso or sergio wins. should i check who is the winner? ;)

i just registered myspace, i know im a looser but i think myspace sucks big time. i hate it. i cant view ppls page quickly. its time consuming and i dont have that!! myspace is the reason why im not sleeping yet at this time because of its lembab page and i have to drive to melaka tomorrow morning at 9am. *sigh* i want/need a digital camera so bad that im willing to work extra hours.

im on my 2 months holiday. today is the 5th day and i dont even know what to do. bored. i need to do something. i enjoy sleeping late at night, waking up in the evening, watch tv but dont tell me thats all im going to do for 2 months. i wish i have all the money in the world to go and see liyana and nadeera, or maybe take up scuba diving license. I WISH! hahaha. sad to say i dont have all that and im stuck here with no money and i can only afford to go to mamak. cant even remember when was the last time i went to coffee bean. *sigh* khafidha went to switzerland last night. thank god for only 4 days.. mawar is busy with her final exam. its gonna be me and sheffer for this 3-4 days.

I did get my hair cut today! In fact just got back from the curve. The stylist was super smart. He checked my head shape to make sure that the cut that I want suits my face. Smart!! the girls did their hair too. khafidha and sheffer, the Simpson style, mawar did utada hikaru style and my hair was more or else like someone's mom! I don't know..im happy though.

last good bye 

girls hug 

liyana going to melbourne 

i miss nadeera and yana. streamyx was down for few minutes and i looked back all the pictures we took over the years. most of the pictures were funny ones. i can stil imagine khafidha, mawar and sheffer doing the cover girl pose. funny funny! that was the last outing with liyana i guess. and the funniest picture, liyana wearing blue shower cap. hahahha. cant wait to go to melbourne next year! nothing new today. went out with the girls. talked about hair all day long. cant wait for this saturday and im going to have this super short hair. wait and see..

had 2 exams today and it was the most difficult exam for me to score A. i had 2 hours of sleep and went for finance paper in the morning and multimedia marketing in the evening. im so happy that i finished those papers today. 1 more exam to go then ill be on holiday for 2 months. excited! this is most probably the only time that mmu is giving us 2 months holiday. im going to enjoy it and cherish every hour. that is sleep!

khafidha and mawar's 21st birthday! 

assignments,test,final exam coming soon! there's a lot of things to do but there's no time to do all those things. stress!!

look what i found! kuna library.. kuna's red wine kuna croatia money

i finished can you keep a secret? everyone should read it. its funny.. just got back from asia cafe with the girls. first time there and the place was ok though. its not a noisy and dark like hartamas square. we talked about our irc time or when my nickname was hyperbaby.what the fuck got into me at that time?and rainbow-sunshine now? wtf? ive changed it. i still want rainbow.blogspot.com but this is the only name that is not 1997. its already friday and i have 2 days to finish all my assignments and study for this upcoming exam. i have exam on thursday and saturday. wish me luck! tomorrow im going to mph with my brother to buy books. i really need to get books for my assignments but im not sure whether is it a must or i just want to have it. my assignments is all about website, building website and sell it and stuff like that, i know i can get all the info from the internet but i feel like its not enough. i cant understand what lissaexplainsitall explains. get it? my frien

something funny happened. had barbeque dinner for my cousin's birthday at her house. after dinner went to meet up the girls at our usual spot. i assumed our usual spot which is mamak, but i forgot we have another usual spot which is not mamak. so i drove as fast as i could, reach at our usual mamak, waited for 10 mins but none of them appeared. the problem is, my phone got barred. then, i decided to go the other usual spot which is not mamak. i saw the kelisa smiling and laughing at me. they were waiting for me and i was waiting for them too! hahaha. maybe its not funny anymore. HAPPY BIRTHDAY NADEERA! I LOVE YOU..

just got back from klia. its a sad place according to khafidha and sheffer. liyana left for melbourne. no more hanging out at coffee bean for caramel ice blended. no more hanging out at her house til morning. no more sleepover. no more playing getah at 2 in the morning. 9 of us have been together for 7 years, there's a lot im gonna miss *sigh* yana..i love you

today i wore orange tee to class and when i reached cyber, anisa was wearing orange tee also. then one of my classmate wore orange shirt. everything is orange today. even the sun orangy hot and burning! thats it for today! orange..

woke up at 7am today for research methodology's presentation. the presentation went alright, just as we planned it. then went to gym, i lost 1 kg. ha ha ha! what an achievement. then met the girls at coffee bean. had lunch at kfc. gain 5 kg after that. in between coffee bean and kfc something funny happened. really really funny. too tired to explain it. class started and ive been busy since the 1st day of class. assignments, case study and more more more. but its all worth it. after this semester im going to have 2 months break. woohoo! thats all for now. sleepy already....