storing sunny and cloudy memories

i'm thinking of what to wear for tonight. green? red? blue? top? tshirt? shorts? jeans? leggings? i can't wait to start my new year with new azam and new cita cita and new angan angan. maybe i should have a list of what to accomplish for next year. all good things must come to an end. this year has been good to me. happy sad most of the time. laugh and cry at the same time. overall, it was good. goodbye to two zero zero eight. hello to two zero zero nine.

drove here this morning. i enjoyed driving to pulau pinang, singapura and merata rata. except to kuala lumpur. stupid jam! no difference to pulau pinang, massive traffic jam after the tol towards the bridge. bad traffic in the city, gurney drive and everywhere here. its been a while since i last came here. i miss this place. its a happy sad feeling. pulau pinang is a place my family likes to visit. this is where my dad would choose his annual holiday. we ate nasi kandar, ice kacang, kuey teow, sotong kangkung, rojak buah, laksa penang. we bought 30 dvds, t shirts and fake stuffs. they are planning to go to the beach tomorrow but im not in the mood for beach. ill just sleep. favourite! im waiting for my gang to finish eating then we are ready to go. i need my daily cigarettes dosage and they are so lembab! updated version of my list.. nirwana, nasi daun pisang dlish, coffee + pretzel mamateh's, nasi kerabu anjung merah, lontong sri melur, roti canai + teh tarik delicious, pasta + pa

merry christmas! traveled to nilai and ate my favorite food, paling favorite! daging salai masak lomak kuning and laksa johor. i was confused which one to eat first. hahaha! yawzaaa.. next pit stop, penang. more good food! updated version of my list. nirwana, nasi daun pisang dlish, coffee + pretzel mamateh's, nasi kerabu anjung merah, lontong sri melur, roti canai + teh tarik delicious, pasta + pavlova mcdonalds, prosperity burger ss15, rojak mamak jalan yap kwan seng, puti bongsu asia cafe, kuey teow goreng + tauhu bakar the curve, ayam penyet haji don, laksa johor + mee rebus carlos, nasi lemak ayam goreng melaka, ikan bakar negeri sembilan, daging salai masak lomak kuning la bodega, tapas chillis, barbeque beef ribs/lamb chop tony romas, barbeque beef ribs anjung merah, nasi dagang/nasi + ayam goreng kampung alexis, pasta/beef sandwich village park, roti bakar + pulut kuning penang, laksa penang + kuey teow + abc 10 more days..

places to go, food to eat.. nirwana, nasi daun pisang dlish, coffee + pretzel mamateh's, nasi kerabu anjung merah, lontong sri melur, roti canai + teh tarik delicious, pasta + pavlova mcdonalds, prosperity burger ss15, rojak mamak jalan yap kwan seng, puti bongsu asia cafe, kuey teow goreng + tauhu bakar the curve, ayam penyet haji don, laksa johor + mee rebus carlos, nasi lemak ayam goreng melaka, ikan bakar negeri sembilan, daging salai la bodega, tapas chillis, barbeque beef ribs/lamb chop tony romas, barbeque beef ribs anjung merah, nasi dagang/nasi + ayam goreng kampung alexis, pasta/beef sandwich village park, roti bakar + pulut kuning wowww..im superhungry now! time is running out, i have exactly 12 days.

they both did a good job. but i must say.. in terms of playing the survivor game, it was definitely amanda. she played to win a million dollar. well, parv just basically stood there and sneaked her way through to the final two. to my surprise and i am utterly disgusted by the results.. parv won the survivor micronesia. bledi hell, taik ayam kentut masin! huargh. it's not fair. amanda worked hard for it. shit ass! okay, im getting too emotional about it. i should put it to an end. during tribal council, ozzy said the sweetest thing to amanda. he was literally in tears when he expresses his feelings and said that he loves amanda. aaaawwwww! so sweet. dalam hutan pon sempat bercinta. hahahahahahahha! survivor is the best!

during my class, he (my lecturer) gave the whole class formula to calculate the age of a younger girl, if you're planning to go for a younger girl. apparently all the guys in my class happen to know that formula. a few had never heard of it before, i was one of them. formula, only for guys or boys (he said). if you're planning to go out with a younger girl. this is the formula by my lecturer. your age divide by two plus seven. that's the girls age that you're supposed to go out with. number below that formula, wrong! wrong! wrong! if i were a boy, using that formula. 24/2 = 12 + 7 = 19 19 years old. if i were a boy lah.. maybe it's a unisex formula. hahaha! if it's not a unisex formula, i should be going out with 34 years old guy. wowww! that's old! wowwwww! nadeera, could james be 34? after the formula, we ended up talking about stuffs.. like tom cruise, nicole kidman, hugh jackman. that friday class, weird much.

my stress level are now extremely high it can explode anytime reports and research on rubbish topics are tiring my sisters and brothers are demanding they are driving me nuts! all i can do now is bitch and complain about it. hahahaha! life's a bitch, deal with it. on the other hand, my dreams are really getting weird each day. is it some kind of hint? or track? or maybe its a dot that i should connect. connect the dots, kuna. i'm happy with what i have now, what i feel now and what i do now. after two long miserable years, i felt peace, relieved and empty. yeah, that's the word. i felt empty. i'm really really happy with myself, most importantly, emotionally. i believe that if you ask for help, you will get it. i'm glad i asked for help and guide. god is always there to help. you just have to believe in god and ask for help. my prayers have been answered, thank you god. this year has been an adventurous journey. this year is coming to an end, sadly. i still remember

i have so many scars, i dont need another. on my leg, on my hand, on my face! what do i do to get rid of it? blargh! i hate it. it's so ugly. tried putting lotion, bio oil, scar cream. maybe i should try minyak masak. ha ha ha. not funny, kuna. i don't remember how i got them, it's just there. maybe scars are there to make you remember the memories of those scars. oh ya, the one on my leg is because of a mosquito bite. first it was a mosquito bite, then after months of scratching it it turned into an infection, then after it popped, scar. what a process. pfft! on my hands, ermm.. just cuts. from knife and paper cuts. now, a new wound on my hand. after the process, it will join the scar team. when is this wound going to heal and join the scar team? maybe scars are there to remind us of our life events. i should keep track of my scars from now on. okay, survivor dah start. bye :)

few of the incidents i encountered which were quite weird and creepy. 1. joline, homeless from the tram incident 2. joline's friend, homeless from the tram 3. mr. garbo man, sang happy birthday for me 4. the guy crying on the tram stop. 5. yesterday, a guy screaming and shouting on the phone, across the street. 6. today, a lady crying at the train station with a big luggage. 7. now, a couple fighting down the street, screaming and shouting at each other. see if i can add more.

omg omg omg omg! jason went to exile island and got the immunity idol. of course james didn't win immunity challenge, erik did. so they all planned on voting james out. the girls, told jason that they were all voting james out. what jason didn't know, they have another plan. to vote jason out. because they knew that jason going to believe them. he was so bloody comfortable with his immunity idol and believed the girls. so what if the girls said they're going to vote james out? bloody use your immunity idol. tribal council time, they were all saying they were going to vote james out. so jason was all smiling, saying that he has made a good move to go to exile island. yada yada yada. voting time, they all voted. and nothing suprise to me, jason didn't use his bloody precious immunity idol. votes were out, james 3 jason 4. jason, the tribe has spoken. sorry to say, you were blind sided. ozzy were blind sided and jason didn't learn the lesson. so, jason got blind sided

so, this is what happened. ozzy got the immunity idol from exile island weeks ago. he kept the idol to himself because he was so strong with his alliance. then, immunity challenge. jason did the dumbest mistake ever in survivor history he made a pact with the others to guarantee him from being voted out so the others agree, just not to let him win the immunity. jason is now at risk. because he was dumb to trust the rest. but what he didn't know was the rest are still going to vote him out. ozzy's plan. then suddenly, they came up with a brilliant plan. to get rid of ozzy. because he is so strong and he basically control the team he won't see this coming. okay, tribal council. they all told jason that he did the dumbest mistake in survivor history. and they all are still going to vote him out. then when the host counted the votes. ozzy 5, jason 4. ozzy, your tribe has spoken. ozzy got a shock of his life. he didn't see it coming, so he didn't use his immunity. sorry

his father passed away when he was a teenager. his mother had to take care of other brothers and sisters, 10 all together. he and his younger sister were sent to stay with their grandmother. he bonded with his sister over the years and they were inseparable. their grandmother took care of them till they went to university. at times, he will meet up with his mother and other brothers and sisters. his father had 3 other sisters and 1 brother who constantly took care of him and his sister. he was close to his uncle and aunties. they were like his parents. after diploma, he went to finish up his degree in Michigan, his sister got married. after completing his degree he came back and worked. he remains his close relationship with his aunties and uncle through out the years. his aunt basically took care of him when he first arrived in kl. 12 years ago, his grandmother passed away. his grandmother who took care of him after this father's death. when his grandmother died, i was at school.

happy birthday sheffer! i wish i could be there and celebrate. love you long time, kuna, porsche neighbor and cafe sienna guy. xoxooooxoo

it all comes up to either you're at the right time, right place. at times, unfortunate things happen to some people just because they are at the wrong place and at the wrong time. at times, happy things happen to some people because they are at the right place at the right time. few weeks back, i was walking with sheffer from a train station to hafiz's house to play poker. as we were walking towards the exit door of the train station we saw this guy, holding a cake with full of candles walking towards a girl who were facing the other way she can't see him, obviously. so this guy walked slowly towards his girlfriend, i assume. and surprised her with the birthday cake. soooo sweeet! then after we went out of the train station we saw this young fine man, waiting for a tram. siting there like any ordinary guy. what's not ordinary is that he was crying. he was literally crying out loud. like we can hear him crying although we were on the opposite street wearing his office at

change is unavoidable. how do we overcome change? change is happening all around us. as a human being without any control of the environmental factor, we face changes in almost every aspect. there's no doubt that human dislike changes. no one is a fan of change unless it brings benefits to them. that is called self-interest. however, in most cases, that would rarely happen. look at ourselves when facebook changes its layout. no one likes it. there's even a petition to bring back the old layout. that shows how we react to changes. period. i am not a fan of change. so, i won't be active with tumblr. blogspot is just it. :) on the other hand, all we can do is swim to the change that is unavoidable. breath, keep paddling and you'll reach to the end without even realizing it. be it breast stroke, butterfly stroke, back stroke or frog style. just don't drown yourself.

hello tumblr ! goodbye superainbow..

bonjour! November 17th, 2008 1:41:13 PM kuna ismail: smalam aku decorate rumah 1:41:15 PM kuna ismail: kemas rumah 1:41:18 PM kuna ismail: uishhhh 1:41:24 PM kuna ismail: penat wei 1:42:07 PM khafidha (khafidha@hotmail.com): wow..kau decorate mcm mane 1:42:16 PM khafidha (khafidha@hotmail.com): ada feature wall semua ke 1:43:09 PM kuna ismail: hahahahhaa 1:43:11 PM kuna ismail: takde lah 1:43:17 PM khafidha (khafidha@hotmail.com): deko bersama eric 1:43:19 PM kuna ismail: aku amik liyana nyer decoration kat rumah dia 1:43:23 PM kuna ismail: pastu tampal kat dinding jer 1:43:29 PM kuna ismail: pastu pagi tadi syok2 tido 1:43:33 PM khafidha (khafidha@hotmail.com): jatuh 1:43:34 PM khafidha (khafidha@hotmail.com): ? 1:43:34 PM kuna ismail: benda tuh jatuh atas kepala aku 1:43:36 PM kuna ismail: siot jer 1:43:39 PM khafidha (khafidha@hotmail.com): HAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHA 1:43:39 PM kuna ismail: apa lagi 1:43:41 PM kuna ismail: jatuh lah 1:43:44 PM kuna ismail: terus bangun aku 1:43:47

yesterday was my first class after the semester break. new semester, new class, new people. i kinda like meeting new people but i don't like to talk about myself to other people. repeating the same thing all over again. yada yada yadaa.. so, i'm just going to ask them to read this entry. easier for me :) hello.. my name kuna. of course that is not my full name or real name. my name is tengku nor liyana. when i was born, my dad decided to call me kuna. that is how it works in the family. ku comes from tengku, na comes from liyana. sorry to say, if your name is tengku khafidha everyone will call you kudha. formally, i will introduce myself as liyana. i was born in 1984, do the math! i'm the eldest among five. i have two demanding sisters and two annoying brothers. i lost track how old they are because they grew up so fast. everytime someone asks how old is my youngest brother i'll end up saying seven, which was five years ago. he will turn twelve next week, but still i th

the pictures were taken exactly a year ago. that day was hilarious. i don't remember why we were at yana's place but i remember she freestyled and we laughed sampai semput. speaking of semput, last night did not go according to plan. few nights ago, yana asked 'you nak buat apa lepas hantar kitaorg pegi airport?' and i answered, 'kemas barang, main internet, tgk tv, maybe buat laundry' so after i sent the girls at the airport went back and kemas barang, main internet.. and then my cousin who just arrived yesterday morning called, saying that his son got an asthma attack and a high fever. she needed to bring him to the hospital. so i rushed macam lipas kudung, picked her up and drove to the nearest hospital. the hospital then referred him to another hospital, children's hospital. apparently the first hospital can't treat him because it's an adult hospital. weird much? hospital is still a hospital, i thought. but for this country, we need to send him t

dah lama tak tgk iklan malaysia. saya nak balik malaysia! sekarang!

i'm starting a new reserach. there are so many questions to structure my new research. can you? should you? do you have to? why it won't work? can you? some say yes, some say no. it depends on the situation, i guess. yes, after a considerable amount of time passes. after you have both really moved on, yes. yes, you can. make sure you're done with it. then, after that is passed, make every effort to maintain at least a casual friendship if this is someone who is in your life anyway. be a grown up, have some maturity, suck it up if you have to, and really try. by veronica should you? "Even if a romance loses its spark, you can still enjoy each other's company," says Patricia Farrell, Ph.D., author of How to Be Your Own Therapist. Plus, he remembers why he fell in love with you and can give you an ego boost when you need it. think of me as a remote, nonthreatening reminder of your old friend. since feelings are nonexistent, why not catch up over dinner without d

while the girls are sleeping, i decided to membebel. kindly press apple-q or alt-f4 if youre not interested in reading :) advancement of technology? can it do us good or can it make it worst? ermmm.. nowadays, the technology is moving rapidly. it changes like the change of weather in melbournebut is the advancement of technology helping us? or we now rely so much in the technology that we get paralyzed without it. zaman zaman mak tok ayah, they communicate using letters which will take a gezillion years to pass one message to another. today with a click of a button the message travels from one country to another within minutes or even seconds. is this a benefit to us or a burden? moving on to the next thing on my mind, will long distance relationship work? even with the advancement of technology? or it will simply make everything more complicated and ruined the relationship? i used to think that with the advancement of technology we can chat, skype, send text through websites and it wi

this past few days was nothing but fun. we laughed til berair mata, asthma attack and terjatuh katil hodon ya! my two dear friend told me that im not as chatty as before i think im still chatty, its just that im used to talking to myself or the furniture in my house being away from home is not something i thought would be easy. it is not easy but possible. unlike relationships, easy but impossible. i miss..

i finished my exam. woohoo! finance and accountings was fuzzy. leadership and management was alright. lenguh tangan menulis . four down eight more to go. the girls are here, im very very happy. very very happy! we eat, drink, shop, cook and do crappy stuffs together. we have our late-night-before-bed-talk. we have sleepovers. im very very happy! but it will end in 11 days, i don't want to think about it for now. this is what we have been doing.. < < im skyping with my brother now. he is so annoying. he wants me to buy this, he wants me to buy that. hish! he's telling me about his girlfriend. eugh! he's big now. he has a girlfriend who is 1/2 inch taller than him. and her name is liyana. hishhh! nama pun nak sama ngan aku.. lawan tauke betul. hish!

i have to submit my report in less than 12 hours i need to print my report! the thing is.. my uni only prints black and white i have graphs and charts, in color i went to library to print they have only black and white i went to other shops they can only print black and white i went to a printing shop near uni they can print color but.. it's $2.40 per page and if you're going to print from usb or cd extra $15 wowwwww! bloody rip-offs!

okay here's the thing. THE hot guy, he looks like this! sorry to say, i think he is hot :)

my day started like any other. freshly brewed coffee from the cafe nearby and a cigarette. students busied themselves with assignment report while i was busy at the smoking area. it was a typical day at uni. students were all facing the computer, stressing, panicking, discussing the big presentation adventure tomorrow. as they were all busy preparing with their group mates, i swiftly took my place in front of the computer, my usual place in the computer lab facing the door, don't know what to expect of what was to come. the 'bitchy' hat of doing group discussion being put on over my head as we were about to discuss our group bit. we wrapped around ourselves our best presentation skills in which we would be presenting tomorrow, and rehearse our lines. later after that, i was doing my research report. the topic i chose and now regret choosing such topic, petrochemical industry. wtf right? as i was typing my report, with my not-so-freshly brewed coffee, then came a sharp smell

camberwell market is the best! vintage stuffs..yeeehaa! we bought old bench for my balcony, and trunk chest-ish for amoi to put her books. now i can sit on my balcony and sun bathe, amoi can put her books in her new trunk. go camberwell! youre the best. a person i knew for only 45 mins told me 'behind every action, there is a positive intend'. it took me a while to understand the meaning behind it. i now know why certain people would react in a certain way. there is always a positive intention behind it. in order to see that, i just have to see it in a different way. in my 24 years of life, im glad to know i have someone beside me. to support and be there for me. i am blessed to have 4 crazy girls with me all my life, 1 crazy girl who is so far away but so near at heart. 2 crazy guys that i tell almost everything. the girls are my oxygen and the pillar in my life. they are my blind spot mirror. we have been friends for half of my life, how could they not be my blind spot mirror

oo, ee, oo ah ah, ting tang, wala wala bing bang oo, ee, oo ah ah, ting tang wala wala bing bang todays class was most probably the most enjoyable class because its the last class for accountings and finance. wohooo! its my last week for the semester. how fast time flies. its been 3 months since i first arrived here. nothing much happened in the past 3 months, i miss Malaysia and i wanna go back home! apart from wanting to go back home, todays class is all about Malaysia. how others view about Malaysia and surprisingly, they didn't think of Malaysia in a positive way. in short, they summarized Malaysia as a country which accepts bribery, cheap illegal dvds, illegal goods, politically unstable, leaders of the country fighting over their own cronies, and good food! i couldn't agree more on the good food part. i miss nasi daun pisang. i was stunned when he mentioned all that, not stunned because it is not true but stunned because he knew so much about Malaysia. memalukan lah all t

i can feel it coming in the air tonight 18 days to go. yeeehha! we were bored and here is the outcome. tadaa! love, kuna. and then we found this.. hi this is not kuna this is the parasite at kuna's apartment mmmm... this parasite is uncertain about everything atm and strongly believes that "money is the root of all evil" fuck this material world muahahaha wishing u peace, happiness and love xoxo