storing sunny and cloudy memories

im tired and sleepy. i've been awake since 9am. woke up at 9am for fadhilah's birthday party at my aunt's place. i was nice there. i played along with them. fadhilah's only 8 years old. i just love them. then around 1230pm went back to mamateh's house. faizul packed his stuff cos he's going back to ipoh. he's supposed to be at zarina's house by 2pm but zarina called while we were on the way to her house and said that she's gonna be late and she'll meet us at 4pm. so, we went to ou. coffee bean as usual. then walked around. he got noora, his step sis a bag as a christmas present. then i sent him at 4pm. i don't know whether i should call her zarina or aunty zarina, but everyone calls her zarina because she's faizul's step mother. its ok. this whole thing is complicated. after i dropped him at zarina's, went back to ou to meet the girls. we went shopping. i bought some stuff for afzal. his birthday is coming up, so i bought him a pr

yesterday morning i woke up at 10am and went to mama teh's house to pick up anas and faizul. apparently they were still sleeping and i had to wake them up, ask them to get ready and stuff. 3 of us went to one utama. reached there at 2pm. parking was hell. it was so difficult to find parking in ou. we spent like 45 mins for parking. then lunch i had subway steak and cheese. i didn't know that subway still exists. i was so happy. then we went to coffee bean. after lunch, we went shopping for christmas. not like i celebrate christmas but faizul wants to send stuffs for his mom and brothers in uk. but he ended up buying an expensive shirt at topshop for himself. i dont see why a 17 years old boy would want to spend rm150 for a black shirt. he says that his money and so what if he wants an expensive shirt. hmph! what-ever. with no money left, we just walk around to see what to buy for to his mom and brothers. there's this electric christmas tree, you just plug in and the snow an

today work was okay. woke up at 6am. i was sleepy the whole time there. after work i took lrt to kelana jaya and afzal picked me up from kelana jaya. we went to one utama. i had chicken tepanyakki, afzal had beef tepanyakki. after that, we went to coffee bean. it was me, afzal, afiq and farah. we talked about school days. then reached home at 6pm. slept for 2 hours, woke up and got to know that our final results had been published online. so went and check mine. it was okay. okay only lah. im happy that i achieved my goal. that is to get 3.0 above. next semester is to get a dean's list. i have another 5 semesters. if i get dean's list 5 semesters in a row. ill be the happiest girl in the world, but that so impossible. then went out with the girls to ravi taipan. nothing much happened today. thats about it. suck la..i have to work tomorrow. sleep time =)

life is unfair. hate my life when its in a mess. now its in a mess. why cant my life be fair? why must i get all the punishment?i've been living for 20 years and its never been fair. i just can't put in words on how i feel now. i just feel like shouting, screaming or maybe get prozac. i think im depressed, emotionally abused, or mentally ill. i know in life that if i want something i have to work hard for it but i've worked hard for it and what do i get? nothing. all i want is to be accepted. sometimes i don't even know where i belong. i don't even know what the hell is wrong but i know something is wrong somewhere. i don't know who i am anymore. i've been nice, happy, hardworking, and the list goes on, but why can't they see that. why must they see the ugly side of me. the girl who i was 7 years ago. im not that stupid rebellious girl anymore. why? enough said. anyway, yesterday i went out with this cousin of mine to ou. we had lunch and usual routi

i received a letter saying that for advertisement purpose, they are giving away gifts and i am entitled to receive olymbus camera (35mm). is there such thing as olymbus camera? maybe its olympus i dont know. in the letter also says that i have to pick the price before 9th december which is today. haha. isn't that funny. this is what i call marketing strategy. the letter arrives on the 8th december. maybe 7th, but i never check the letter box because i never get one. so it was on my desk just now and when i read it says BEFORE 9th december. they are very good. im not that excited because its olymbus. olymbus? 10 days more, then class starts.

i think everything that happened in my past has a reason for it to happen. i dont regret anything that happened in my past, i surely don't want it to be in my future. well, some of it lah! yes, i do think everything happens for a reason. if the incident that happened 6 years ago didn't happen, i don't know where i am right now. what happened back then was every girls nightmare, but we went through it. we survived and we're still friends despite everything that happened. things were rough but when there's a bump in your life, just go through it slowly and it will end eventually. im glad that we are still friends. too bad for that jerk, you have no one now! i do think the thing that happened at that time thought me a lot about friendship, love and dignity. i could imagine myself if what happened back then didn't happen. i imagine myself being a slut, bitch, chasing every guy that i want without thinking about anybody else. im glad it happened, im glad that im not

today is the 3rd day of my semester break and im already arranging my timetable for next semester. what a nerd! i hate my timetable for next semester. i have classes on friday, 4-5pm and saturday 9-10am. i've been enjoying my classes before this because i only have monday-thursday classes, but next semester i have monday-saturday. huargh! and i have sunday to sleep and hang out with my girlfriends. i know the fact that most of them are studying in aussie, but still! i need time to relax and sleep. stupid mmu. to everyone out there, do not go to mmu. they make you classes on saturday and sometimes night classes and semester break for 3 weeks only! the usual routine for today, i woke up at 230pm. went to tomyam for lunch with afzal, afiq and his girlfriend. after lunch went to subang parade with the girls. hoping to play with cute kittens at pets wonderland, but they were asleep. yesterday they were so active, we actually got to play with them. they're so cute. but the price i

yesterday i had the happiest day ever. me and the girls went out to coffee bean, then suddenly we came up with this plan to play getah at yana's place. so at 130am we went to kedai runcit and bought 2 packets. went to yana's place and start playing getah at 230am. we had fun. it reminds me of my childhood days except at that time i only weight 40kg. we had fun like nobody's business. played getah until 4am, then watched dvd. that movie was good though it was a little bit slow. i had fun yesterday! im so happy..