my afternoon thoughts

sometimes i wonder how do i get here? how the hell did i end up being this person.
dont get me wrong because i love myself, my family and friends who i cant live without.
my love hate relationship with my work will never end.
even if i quit my job, i dont think ill be satisfied.
but as long as i need to pay my mortgage, car, food, vacation and shopping, quiting my job seems impossible.
im grateful and thankful for what i have.
my life up til today has been a crazy giant drop ride.
i wouldnt say i enjoy every bit of it, there are days i feel like killing myself.
somehow i manage to get through it.
they say..

"God never gives you something that you can't handle, and never takes back anything without which you can't live"