if i could, if only, what if..

from The Star

now, this is how i feel! crashed.
i feel like there's a big lorry stuck in my chest and i'm suffocating from this discomfort. i can hear the thump. i cannot breathe, or speak. no one will hear me scream. it hurts real bad that i feel the warm tears flushing out of my eyes. i signed up for this so i have to face it. like it or not, just fucking swallow it kuna!

somebody take this bloody lorry out of my chest and save me from this misery.

i hope this pain will only be for today, tomorrow is a new day and i hope it will be a good one. please lah! im begging for it to be a good one tomorrow.

:(