waiting for the hint of a spark

my stress level are now extremely high it can explode anytime
reports and research on rubbish topics are tiring
my sisters and brothers are demanding they are driving me nuts!
all i can do now is bitch and complain about it. hahahaha!
life's a bitch, deal with it.

on the other hand, my dreams are really getting weird each day.
is it some kind of hint? or track?
or maybe its a dot that i should connect.
connect the dots, kuna.

i'm happy with what i have now, what i feel now and what i do now.
after two long miserable years, i felt peace, relieved and empty.
yeah, that's the word. i felt empty.
i'm really really happy with myself, most importantly, emotionally.
i believe that if you ask for help, you will get it.
i'm glad i asked for help and guide.
god is always there to help.
you just have to believe in god and ask for help.
my prayers have been answered, thank you god.
this year has been an adventurous journey.
this year is coming to an end, sadly.
i still remembered early january this year, how can i not remember?
hahhahhaha. jumped in the pool 3am, in my pyjama.
ggsshhh! that was stupid. what was i thinking?
oh wait, i didn't think. i just jumped.
i'm glad im nowhere that phase anymore.
i'm over it and happy that i got over it.
finally! it took me a year to finally get here.
whatever happened in january, the total opposite happened in december.
i never thought i would feel this way now.
thanks to james, is it because of james? hahahahah. over!
for whatever reason behind it, i'm glad that it happened.
everything happens for a reason.
for years, i wake up everyday and only think what if this, what if that?
now, i wake up every morning not think about it anymore.
i don't wake up feeling depress or sad or whatever shity anymore.
hhheeeeehhoooo!

watch out, kuna is back! :)
goodbye two thousand eight.
xoxooxo