love will tear us apart

ucapan daripada anakanda di perantauan:
kepada mak, ayah, sahabat handai jauh nun di malaysia..

hari yang panas gunalah kipas,
kipas boleh dibeli di pekan,
hari raya dah pun lepas,
silap dan salah mohon dimaafkan.

ok, lame.
selamat hari raya aidilfitri.
mohon ampun maaf dipinta jika terkasar bahasa atau terguris hati.


this year raya was different but same.
different because im away from home.
different because my ketiak tak basah in baju kurung, for the first time!
different food. Alhamdulillah.
same because i didn't get any duit raya.
same because i slept after beraya and makan.
same because i didn't cry.
jijo and amoi cried, both cried but different reason.
i know i was supposed to be sad or at least cry, but i couldn't.
i miss my brother, but he's acting like an adult.
no more time for me, ppfftt!
this year raya, i enjoyed the food.
nasi lemak, rendang, lodeh, nasi impit, ayam sambal hijau!
ohmigod! so good and so different.
thanks to jijo and friends!

i'm having trouble sleeping lately.
me, trouble sleeping? i know! weird much.
i always thought that i could sleep anywhere, anytime.
i can bet you that i could sleep in a bath tub.
but for the past few weeks, i couldn't sleep.
i'm not sure why. i'm not sad, not depressed, not sick.
wtf! what's wrong with me?

there's so many things i wanna say..
but what i'm feeling right now, at this moment..
just doesn't translate into words.
i'm having my 'abedik' moment and my brain is going 'krik krik'.

krik krik..