you're so sad maybe you should buy a happy meal

yesterday was my first class after the semester break.
new semester, new class, new people.
i kinda like meeting new people
but i don't like to talk about myself to other people.
repeating the same thing all over again.
yada yada yadaa..
so, i'm just going to ask them to read this entry.
easier for me :)

hello..

my name kuna.
of course that is not my full name or real name.
my name is tengku nor liyana.
when i was born, my dad decided to call me kuna.
that is how it works in the family.
ku comes from tengku, na comes from liyana.
sorry to say, if your name is tengku khafidha
everyone will call you kudha.
formally, i will introduce myself as liyana.
i was born in 1984, do the math!

i'm the eldest among five.
i have two demanding sisters and two annoying brothers.
i lost track how old they are because they grew up so fast.
everytime someone asks how old is my youngest brother
i'll end up saying seven, which was five years ago.
he will turn twelve next week, but still i think he is seven.
my dad is the sweetest.
he talks really loud but that is just the way he is.
my mom likes to cook.
she cooks or bake or do wonders in the kitchen.
she doesn't like to go to shopping malls.

i grew up with 5 bestfriends.
khafidha, since i was 4 years old.
she lives in front of my house.
we play masak masak with daun daun, batu batu and periuk tipu when we were small.
during those days, we called each other by 'saya' and 'awak'
till one day my mom started imitating us,
'awak awak..saya kan..'
then we went to 'kau aku', till now.
erm..at least that's how i think we started calling each other 'kau aku'
she is currently working with IBM.
nadeera, we call her amoi.
i knew her since i was 5.
we went to the same kindergarten.
nadeera and her brother hafiz.
nadeera is a year younger, hafiz is my age.
although she is a year younger, she thinks like a year older.
she is graduating end of this year.
she will soon become dr. nadeera.
sheffer, that is what we call her.
her name is syarifah nadia husna.
but somehow, sheffer got stuck.
although she has quite few version of sheffer
for example, stefan, shefster, sheffey, and the latest claudia.
i have known her from my primary school days.
she is the quietest among all.
but my god, if she starts yapping, she can't stop.
we both enjoy desserts and coffee.
we have our dessert day out.
i think the common thing we have, love for food!
but she stays in shape while i grow sideways.
liyana laily..
cik laily, her grandma calls her.
she is my framily.
new word some people invented.
yes, she is my framily.
at times, i don't function without her.
she thinks for me.
she tells me things that i know but i won't admit.
she can be crazy sometimes.
dance, laugh, sing, then semput.
oh ya, i stole her ex-bf when we were 14 years old.
we had a big fight at the canteen school.
that is in the past, now she is my sister from another mother.
sophia zara, she is in uk.
happy with her mat salleh boyfriend.
she is clumsy and kepoci at times.
we were really close when we were 17.
we had tuition class together
with a teacher who has the worst BO.
after tuition, her mom will cook us ikan terubuk.
back then, she sneaked out from her house to hang out with the boys
but when her mom kantoi, she hid inside the longkang.
she comes back once in a while.
we still catch up for coffee whenever she's in malaysia.

brief explanation about my past relationships..
went out with a guy who were shorter than me, for a while.
didn't work out cos we were too young kot.
we decided to become friends, and we were best friends ever since.
dated with this cute (at that moment) guy for a while
cute but a jerk.
went single for 3 years.
then, went on a love cruise for almost 6 years.
not going to say much about it cos we are not in talking terms.
i miss talking to him.
dated ching chong..
things didn't work out and we are better off as friends.
one of my dearest friend till now.
as the girls once said, baru kenal tapi rapat gila!
you know i lap u ching chong!
now, new relationship with myself, new chapter.
next month, i will be celebrating my 12 month anniversary.
happy as i can be. i try.
enjoying every bit of this moment :)

some basic facts about me..
i drink coffee.
coffee with milk and sugar.
i do not drink black coffee.
i do not drink tea unless it is a life and death matter
except for teh tarik.
any type of tea, i do not drink.
i'd rather go thirsty.
i do not drink water as regular as i should.
i do not drink air kelapa, cincau, bali, just to name the few.
the list can go on and on.
when it comes to food,
i cannot eat shellfish except for crab.
i would love to eat those, but i just can't.
oh! i am allergic to mint.
anything minty, mint or cooling effect, i will die.
the last time i accidentally had something minty,
ice blended chocolate, there's mint in it
which i didn't know.
i threw up by the roadside, next to coffee bean subang parade.
in front of everyone!
if you wish to kill me, pls kindly put mint inside my food or drinks.
i read true stories books.
mainly about child being abused, raped or mentally tortured.
i watch all sorts of movies.
english, malay, chinese, especially hindustan with shah rukh khan in it.
i don't mind watching selena again and again.
i don't have any preference for music.
whatever i can sing, i like.
i can't hum a note.
i'm tone deaf.

after spm, i went to local university.
did foundation in IT.
decided it was all good fun and i can't do anymore of IT stuffs.
did marketing with multimedia.
graduated, average jane.
in between that, i've worked with event companies.
kindy teacher after SPM, then retail boutiques, advertising company.
then got a permanent job with oil and gas company
to repay back my scholarship.
8 years contract, damn!
currently taking a year break from work, 1 year off.
when i was small, i wanted to become a doctor.
when i was 13 years old, wanted to become a dolphin trainer.
when i was 16 years old, wanted to become an architect.
now, i don't know what i want to be.

i can't cook, honestly!
i'm the worst cook i've ever known.
i can't even masak nasi.
too keras or too lembik.
i just gave up.
i know how to cook, some stuffs
to keep me alive and healthy.
but don't blame me if you get food poisoning.

i like to talk.
i can be shy at times
whenever i meet new people.
i might be mistaken as snobbish but i'm not.
i'm just shy.
i can get along with anybody, i hope so.
i can talk to almost anyone, even strangers.
i can even say the stupidest thing you've ever heard
which can creeps you out.
can't help it, sorry.

i've had short hair, long hair, medium length.
i've tried mohawk, shaved on side the other side long, shaved at the back with fringe in front, bob, spikey.
name it, you've got it.
i've not tried botak though, would love to try, but takot!
bleached blonde when i was 12 years old.
went to brown when i was 13, light brown throughout secondary school.
red when i finished school and other different colours.
now it's darkest brown, it looks black.

i'm terrified of snakes, cockroaches, rats or anything that crawls.
yuckkkkk!
i don't like roller coasters.
but i would love to bungee jump and skydive.

i love to travel.
if i had more money, i would love to do nothing but travel.
i enjoyed chiang mai.
it was the most relaxing holiday.
i loved bali!
nothing but fun.
vietnam? erm, business trip.
thailand? erm, balik kampung.
so banyak tempat i want to go, but so little money.

whenever i can, i go diving.
i love the peace and sound of water under the sea.
it is the only place where i can really think.
the colour of the water. wow!
the weird fellows under the sea.
i'm no pro in diving but i wish to grow old by the beach
and dive everyday!

i'm a side sleeper, most days.
whenever i have bad tonsil day, i'm a back sleeper.
i prefer to sleep on the left side of the bed.
i used to have bantal busuk, now i just need my lavender spray and candle.
apart from tonsillitis, i suffer from sinusitis.

my teeth are not naturally this straight
i used to wear braces when i was 14.
sometimes, i wear my retainers.

enough for now, ill update more if something cross my mind.
i need to shower now.
hopefully today, second class for this semester will be fun :)